Life

Theres somethings in life you just tend not to deal with on a day to day basis. Some things you would just rather leave and hope they get figured out on themselves, but those things are usually the things that weigh on you the most. Theres this problem that I have weighing on me and making me go crazy... How do I tell someone your leaving and not coming back? Tell them that the time you spent with them was the worst 2 years of your life, that they treat you like they are on top and your of course always on the bottom, that you never want to speak to or see them again? I don't know how to tell a roommate something like that... I don't feel bad for wanting to say these things because they are true feelings, I don't feel like i shouldn't say them because I want her to know she has been the worst person to me and has actually made my life so unhappy I have to leave every weekend just to feel like I'm not the scum of the earth. The way that people think no one else in their life matters except for them and oh can't forget about the precious boyfriend, you spend all your time just worrying about those two people and you loose a lot of good people that would have been there for you no matter what. Well now instead instead of having more people in your life all you have is him. and eventually (I say this with 100% honesty) you will need that person that you treated like shit, you'll sit there and you'll say "damn... I wish she was still here" and I wont be because i'm not letting you out of everyone make me feel bad about myself anymore.

Anyways.... All in all the roommate situation is the worst thing ever. Should have just gotten a place to myself, at least then I would have been able to sleep through the nights.